The last post was actually written on 11-10-07; the one about surprise phone call from Jonathan.
Anyway, I was going through my list of music in my iTunes and then spotted a piano piece called “Close to you”. I double clicked it and music started flowing from my laptop, diffusing in the den. Closed my eyes and listened intently as music and memories flood into my mind.
Kurt wrote it a few years ago and played it to me over the phone when he was still in HK. He said it was our song and he wrote it for me. My first song was a piano piece written by one of the most romantic and charming guy I’ve met in my life. Our friendship didn’t waver despite our disasterous relationship, and a few weeks ago he reminded me of the good times by recording the song and sent it to me on mp3 format so that I “can put it in our ipod and listen to it together”. Did I tell you I bought him an ipod nano (old ver.) last year when we started dating again?
The recording was of him playing the piece on his piano in his little bedroom in Australia. I can imagine him playing the nearly 3 minute piece with his eyes closed and smiling just a bit in a relaxed way. He has always been like that, my dear friend.
Although we still throw out flirtatious comments and glances to each other when we talk or meet, we have absolutely no intention of going back together. At least I won’t give him another chance, unless he begs on his knees. I’m forgiving but I don’t forget. Paul said that’s not entirely forgiving the person if I don’t forget, but I don’t think so. Forgive means to stop blaming; and forget is to dismiss from the mind/ stop remembering. Two different meanings therefore it’s not mutually inclusive.
Regarding what happened during summer, I forgave myself but didn’t forget. For awhile I have blamed myself for what happened, but now I just think I’m not treating myself nice like that. One should respect themselves before demanding respect from others; it’s the same with love: others can’t love you if you don’t love yourself.
The latter is totally off topic I know… I just like to write whatever I have in mind.
Ooohhhh!! I bought a business suit for tomorrow’s JUPAS Information Day. Debby said we, the helpers, need to exert our professional side to others in order to promote our university and give good impression to parents and or potential CityU students. I was trying the black skirt with heels today at Club Monaco (a retailer), came out from the changing room and asked Nicky, “How do I look?”
Response was, “Like those OL (office ladies) working in Central. Very nice, indeed!”
I thought I’d look good in pants but then skirts are pretty good too~ Hehehe <— See? Totally off topic! 
