Omg I felt like I failed people. I never realized how I might reveal to newcomers in our orientation camp that I’m actually a second-year student, instead of a freshman just like them. I can see the plans crumbling to pieces.
I am so unhappy. I promised two parties that I will (1.) be their spy for the camp and won’t reveal anything as I will be extra extra careful, and (2.) go on stage and speak with all new students with my professors. After discussing my schedule with Ball (IVP of CityU SSS) did I realize those two commitments clash like hell and heaven.
He proposed that I should give up the post of speaking in front of people at university’s orientation day for newcomers because that would be a problem for their camp and upcoming activities, especially when I’ve met with my camp team on registration day. However I cannot let Betty down, I made her a promise and deal or no deal Betty has higher authority than Ball. Disappointing her can hurt my academic career. She has high hopes and expectations for me, I have to live up to it…
If I choose to live up to her, I’d abandon Ball and my friends who have worked so hard to put this together. They stayed up all those nights just to make everything fool-proof. They put so much time and effort into it that I’ve ruined it just before the camp. Xenia and Angus will be really disappointed and angry, seeing they are the hot-tempered type of friends. How can I do this?
I am but the biggest fool alive. Edwin called and said, “Are you sure you’re going to do this?”
Well, I cannot tell Betty (my academic advisor/ boss/ 3rd year project coordinator), Alex (head of psycho dept.), and Vincent (prominent professor with very good links to other universities/ my lecturer for most of next semester’s courses/ the guy who signed the papers whom enabled me to get my scholarship) that I have to attend sth called “o’camp” therefore I won’t be able to help them. Chances like these don’t just happen. I earned their trust since my first-day in university, and no one can tell me to drop out from them when I’ve promised…..
“Well, in that case, you know what to do… heh….”
I won’t be able to come to the camp and will have to apologize to the 150 students and newcomers to this camp… I’ll have to suck it up. I made a dire mistake…
I can’t help but say it’s ENTIRELY, COMPLETELY, 100% ALL MY FAULT!!!!
