Despite telling Paul what I thought face to face, I didn’t get a straight answer from him. If not, I haven’t received any reply other than “I’m confused too” or “I don’t know”. Today I got, “I haven’t really thought of that”. It’s a good thing I lowered my expectations yesterday, because then it wouldn’t have much effect on me. Not as much as I normally would, that is… I mean, if I didn’t prepare myself for such possibility of answer I might freak out and think I might have done something wrong or that I’m just obnoxious and he doesn’t want to tell me because that might hurt my feelings. Right now, I do worry there’s something that I did or didn’t do but then I’m not freaking over it.
Dinner at Itamae was alright; he ordered a few new dishes I’ve never tried before. Not all of them were nice, but it was fun trying different things and I had a nice time. I wanted to get something from Log-On today, but then I rarely shop for something I wear with a friend so I decided to check it out myself next time I pass by. Overall, I had a good time but I said ‘great’ anyway in case he thought something went wrong. No, nothing went wrong it’s just not as great as I had before. Maybe I should drink something before I go out next time, maybe everything would be more interesting and shiny. Like LDN… Didn’t feel so well after dinner since I had ice-cream right after. How stupid of me… but then I really wanted that ice cream at that time. =_=” Mmm maybe I can be impulsive. Does impulsive mean doing things stupidly and rashly?
Jonathan just never stops bothering me. One day I will kill him…. j/k. But seriously, he’s so friggin’ frustrating. He ignores me when I said I am really into Paul; talks to me when he wants to come out with me; and bothers me when he thinks I don’t like Paul as much anymore. It’s funny why Paul should say girls are really hard to understand, I talk about my feelings and thoughts (not private ones) with people (except for relatives and parents). It’s just that I can’t talk about everything at any time. Sometimes I have to wait for the right moment to ask certain questions. See, if I told Paul what I thought about this afternoon, the rest of the day might’ve been weird for me/ him. It’s always better to leave stuff like these till the end, because if it goes wrong or funny we can sulk alone while we’re going home separately. It can get embaressing if we had to face each other for the next few hours… Mmm just a thought.
*yawn* I gotta sleep early tonight. Need to put my mind off things. Not like there’s much hope…. I give up -_- not like I’m any better than other girls hahahaha…. And being in Hong Kong isn’t any advantage at all. So, yeh I’ll just take a shower, and sleep early so I can go to The Arch and work my a** off just to keep myself busy…. I’ll be Little Miss Busy tmr. Haha…
Jonathan, it’s not that I don’t care about you anymore. I never have. Don’t tell me to talk to you when I said I want to be left alone. A-L-O-N-E = IN SOLITUDE, ONE PERSON ONLY. NO JONATHAN TAM ALLOWED!!! I’m not feeling well, impatient, and tired… right now, you’re getting on the last of my nerves so STFU, you piece of sht fking moron…
*phew* I let it all out on him. Hahahaha… poor guy….(not!)
I won’t be nice to microbacteria like him!! The little rat….
“I’m your backup plan” he said. BACK UP?? I DON”T NEED BACK UP from you!!! I’ve back ups from other people and of all people I certainly don’t have to choose him. And when I need to send my back ups here, I may only do it out of anger and getting back at myself or sth…. GO AWAY
GO AWAY
AWAY
AWAY!!!!!!!!
i need a spell from the Wicked Witch of the East to send you off to Kansas with a tornado…
‘ Jonathan ‘ – “The Apprentice”ing Now on Season 4 says (23:18): and i wish i was the one u chose..
how can one person be so certain of what he wants, while the other is ambivilant? sometimes i wonder what’s going through their minds. is jonathan absolutely crazy? or is paul completely clueless about what he wants? i wonder….if i’ll ever stop wondering…. —–
Reading: Katekyo Hitman Reborn
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Today’s random quote: Love is for the lucky and the brave.
I’m not Little Miss Lucky (in the naughty places….) haha..
Another random sentence: This is like tea mixed with ‘cha’.
Good one~ ^_^
