First thought when I woke up at 6.01AM – my supervisor Evian and my workload for weekend. I’m going back to bed for a bit, don’t feel like working first thing in morning. Where’s my pillow? Must have kicked it onto the floor while I was wrestling a huge black cloud last night in my dream. Hmmm…What does that represent?…….*dozed off*
Woke up again at 8.10AM by loud knock at the door and frantic turning of knobs on door (right, I locked them each night before I sleep… just in case my brother crawls up to my bed and start pulling me out in annoying way). I openned thinking it’d be Kennedy, but there was my dad all dressed and ready to go to his weekend golf. “Have a pleasant day, dad” I said in my gleeful voice as possible, but must’ve sound sleepy because I just grabbed my pillow from the floor and walked towards my bed. Dad toured around room and said, “Be good while I leave you and your bro with your mom for the weekend. Call me if anything happens. I’m leaving you in charge. And wake up! It’s 8AM and the sun is shining on your bum…blah blah blah blah blah”
How can one talk so much in morning? Am I going to be like my parents? What’s roaring outside?..Oh, the radio and its advertisement I loathe. I only mimick advertisements for fun… Hmmm I can be one fine broadcaster…
“Are you listening to me??” Dad asked.
“Why, yes. What do you think I’m doing??”
“I thought I heard you sleeping.”
“I don’t snore.”
……..really, i don’t.
Working on assignments and right now listening to “All these things that I’ve done” by The Killers. And occassionally swiping up that keychain, laugh and get back to my work. When is this going to be over??? Damn, and I got hired for another research job right after this one. =_= Tedious, very tedious tasks. Ooohh alliteration….
YES!!!! My first credit card arrived in the mail today. Blessed black card. I shall keep it in my wallet and leave it there – unused, fresh, and new.
Thought for the day: Procrastinators are leaders of tomorrow!!!! =D
“hey amanda, what’s your msn? xx”
Who the heck is Jonathan Tam?????????? Imperial…. Hmmm nice how ppl get my cell number easily. I guess i’m on yellow page, huh?
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What’s wrong with guys?? Why are they so difficult to understand?? One minute I’m at fault of being “forceful and incompatible”, the next minute he throws me a call and say, “Hey, sth came up between me and Danielle.” Hahaha Oh really? The minute you split up with me, was the time I cursed you and hope you wouldn’t have any good relationship afterwards and what did I tell you? HAH!!
After going through all those gritty details of why they didn’t work out and how it was all her fault he asked me out. God, I thought it was typical of him to blame other people of his shortcomings, but I am truly amazed by his courage to ask me out AND to forgive him. Oh yeh right, I’ll give you a chance. Did you give me a chance when you threw me away when you decided you’re too immature to commit???
You are immature, irresponsible, uncommitable, selfish!! A piece of junk that should not have been part of my history. And don’t forget you humiliated me in front of all those ppl in MK MTR station and I will not endure another incident again. I only befriended you so to hear you tell me your so-called love life isn’t working magic as you’ve hoped. You know what I think? You aren’t sorry. You didn’t call me to apologize. You were just lonely. You are the worst boyfriend anyone can care to have. And after all these events, you haven’t changed one bit at all. I must admit, we ARE incompatible because I’m not like you, at least I don’t treat everything like a friggin’ game!!! Don’t you gimme any other excuses. I through with listening to all your stories. Why should I go through all this again?? I don’t need to torture myself with you. *ARGH!!!!!* My entire weekend was suppose to be productive, and now because of YOU I’m in no mood to do nothing at all. I might get fired because of you. Yeh, I’m blaming you for everything. I’m throwing everything you’ve given me. AND I MEAN IT THIS TIME. You are a rat, you know that?? Or lower than that…you are der Scheißkerl.
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Lying on my bed thinking (again). I realized that I shouldn’t get so worked up by Kurt. Like someone said the other day, what’s past is past. I should leave it as it is. Besides, I knew then I won’t get back with him, so what’s the point of cursing and screaming at him? If I get fired because I was in a bad mood and that he initiated it, he would’ve won. I mean, he would’ve sort of wanted me to care and by showing my anger means I still have a bit of him left in me. However, that’s not possible. So I shall not be affected by him and will continue with corruption cases. I divert my extra energy to it until I finish a week’s work in two days. Yes, I shall do just that….. -=)
